urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:rawkinforsure I am Pedro haha rawkinforsure 2005-11-06T03:12:35Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:rawkinforsure:41874 2005-11-06T03:12:35Z 2005-11-06T03:12:35Z OMFG i havent done this in forever.<br />I guess everything is going awesome im officially quitting shaws this week and getting a job as a CNA...im really happy i kinda just got out of a relationship i guess im just better at the whole single flirtatious thing. i took my SATs today that umm SUCKED haha ya so im going out wit julie right now i guessssss ill do this again soemtiem soon haha. <br /><br />&lt;333 love my noogies from like months ago hah urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:rawkinforsure:41537 2005-07-21T20:28:28Z 2005-07-21T20:28:28Z i actually want to scratch out my last entry. im glad i dont have a boyfriend.<br />IM FREE TO DO WHATEVER I WANT WHENEVER I WANT WITH WHOEVER I WANT<br />i dont need to worry about the constant aggrivation of if im diong something am i pissing him off. <br />WHATEVER i glad to be single ive been able to hang out with whatever guys i want and i dont have to answer to anyone about it <br />LOVELY im pumped and wooh hoo the end haha urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:rawkinforsure:41456 2005-07-12T03:50:47Z 2005-07-12T03:50:47Z somebody wants to be my boyfriend ok?~ im sick of beingg single not even because i want someone to share stuff with blah blah blah i want some making out and fun stuff haha<br /><br />plus i hate when my friends ask me to hang out and they have their boyfriends im like ya im single wooh hoo haha<br /><br />whatever when the tiem is right i guess haha and its funny cuz ill like someone and they A)get a girlfriend B) are moving like tomorrow C)GAY D)like me as a friend for the moment <br /><br />STORYYY OF MY LIFE I LOVE IT and i hate when people bring it to my attention cuzz then i ened up writing about it in my livejournal:-) ahha the end. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:rawkinforsure:41112 2005-07-06T16:18:33Z 2005-07-12T03:47:21Z I may quit shaws:-) <br />i heard someone is coming back not that i dont want them too buttt if they do i think my hours will go to shit and ill be a little to'd so imay leave but well see what happens. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:rawkinforsure:40885 2005-07-02T22:49:45Z 2005-07-02T22:49:45Z i find life amazing i love to watch people and see everyones different reactions to the same simple instances<br /><br />im over trying to correct myself im happy with who i am today at this moment and if your not to bad theres the door. My attitude makes me who i am, my smile not perfect but to someone it is im sure, my hair makes me who i am on the outside and so does my nose wether i thihnk its huge or not. I have a big heart but i have to let you in or youll never know that people have to earn my trust and its not that easy and its really easy too lose my trust because sometimes i look for reasons to not want to trust someone. but those are all things ive come to love about myself as dissfunctional as they all may seem. <br /><br />relationships i have no luck with im always the dink that trusts a "badboy" if you will i guess you could say that to a point anyways. I dont know why im like that i look for the rebellious type because i know im not like that im shy and i dont really do anything im not suppose to and i love guys that are the complete opposite but then i look for things like committment to a point because im only 17 and its not like im looking to get married or anything but a relationship other than "seeing eachother" or "open relationship" i guess im looking for something a little more serious with someone a little more serious i suppose. I want someone as goofy and immature as i am i need someone that ifthey kiss me and i laugh theyll laugh too or if we are cuddling and i randomly get up and get on the phone they wont mind because again im not good at relationships and i dont really know how to act when im in one. I just want to find someone like that someone funn to be arouned that makes me smile and laugh and treats me like i matter. Guuys ive previously dated or hung around didnt do that they made me feel like "i could be with any girl i wanted right now but im settling for you" like they would hit on my friends just as much as they would me RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME. Again it was the whole rebellious thing at the time i found this attractive for some odd reason like hte idea of not being able to control them and that i know no matter how much i wanted to i could never change them i just found thta hot. Thats not the idea at all eitreh im not looking for a guy i can control or change even i would never ever want to do taht because i would hope that whoever i end up with would not want to control or change me in any way shape or form. I feel that eventually im going to end up with someone that makes me really happy its just a matter of time and im not going to search for them anymore im just going to let happiness find me. <br /><br />I guess you could say today while i laid in the sun i did some thinking. Im happy with me im confident to a point i mean im sstill the tuype of girl that looks in the mirror and sees a million and one things that other girls have that i dont but whatever i cant change that so why cry aobut it. Im sure there is someone out there that will like me for me and see me as someone special and not just a bitch:-) haha <br /><br />k so ya thats my story the end! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:rawkinforsure:40652 2005-07-02T00:42:35Z 2005-07-02T00:42:35Z Heyyyy<br /><br />Im in new hampshire until monday meaning ive had from thursday trill monday off form work makinjg this onlyh ht ebest weekend o fmy lifew whether im here with friends or not im exhausted and it will be nice to just chilll out all weekend pluss there are some horribly hot guys roaming the campground amking me the happiest person alive for the moment haha<br /><br />ya so anyways i think thats all for today i dont know i may update again thissss wweeeekend cuz i have all the time in the world:-) hehe<br /><br />comment k?!?!?!?! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:rawkinforsure:40330 2005-06-26T15:43:03Z 2005-06-26T15:43:03Z I really dont know hwy ur talking shit<br />your about to catch one right in the lip<br />theres about to be a what...GIRL FIGHT <br /><br />i love that song the end.<br /><br />k so yaa whatever im pumped cuz summer is here and i have a pool now so like my days consist of shopping, pooling, and guys:-) i love it haha<br /><br />the end. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:rawkinforsure:39940 2005-06-18T17:04:59Z 2005-06-18T17:04:59Z k so my parents both left for new hampshire last night leaving me home alone. fine. on my way home from work last night despite the loud noise already coming from my exhaust i hear a dragging noise. so i get home finally look under my car only to see my muffler hanging off. lovely now im not positive how im getting to work tonight or anywhere else for that matter. the end. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:rawkinforsure:39698 2005-06-17T03:08:08Z 2005-06-17T03:08:08Z im dying my hair as i write :-) im pumped and hope it comes out real nice cuz im def going darker:-0 haha urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:rawkinforsure:39582 2005-06-09T02:36:53Z 2005-06-09T02:36:53Z UMMM YAA TODAY I GOT MY CNA:-)<br /><br />and i probly wont update till then SO MY BIRTHDAY IS JUNE 23rd. START BUYING MY PRESENTS:-) hahah jk urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:rawkinforsure:39256 2005-05-28T01:57:15Z 2005-05-28T01:57:15Z i update like never im doing really good i jsut work ALOT like ALOT lol. Im tired and looking for places to sleep 98% of the time. I dont even like to hang out with my friends as much because im so tired im like boring to be around its sucky. <br /><br />the end. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:rawkinforsure:38777 2005-05-17T02:35:53Z 2005-05-17T02:35:53Z i had such a good day today and i dont even know why lol even my regular customers where like you look so happy today and your so bright and cheery there like "are you on drugs" haha it was cute they said usually im a sweetheart but today was special haha im like i dont know why i guess i just woke up on the good side of the bed this morning wich is kind of hard to fuck up since i had a twin.<br /><br />k the end:-) lol urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:rawkinforsure:38409 2005-05-16T01:47:24Z 2005-05-16T01:47:24Z WADDDUP i fought with my dad for the 8th time thsi week im counting i dont care though im over it hehe<br /><br />IM GOING TO BED i have norhting of any importance to say other than im going to marry napoleon dynamite:-) haha<br /><br />&lt;3 peace noogies. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:rawkinforsure:38225 2005-05-12T02:41:53Z 2005-05-12T02:41:53Z im actually really tired ive been working like everyday 3-9 and on days i dont work i go out or stay up real late.<br /><br />im feeling that beauty fades and slowly but surely i am becoming ugily retarted looking and what not...i think its cuz i dont eat and i dont sleep or maybee im being punished for making fun of people like i do. cuz i definatly do like after i call my brother fat i swear my ass jiggles for like a week after that. haha. i think my nose is getting bigger something just doesnt look right to me when it comes to my face<br /><br />yaa so anyywayyyys im being trained next week for a different part of working at shaws soooo...LESS TIME ON THE SERVICE DESK &lt;3 this is me hearting over the fact that i dont have to deal with cockmunchers that get pissed about food. <br /><br />umm ya i love to complain too haha urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:rawkinforsure:38113 2005-05-08T20:44:43Z 2005-05-08T20:44:43Z umm i hate my job basically its the worst one of all time. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:rawkinforsure:37809 2005-05-06T01:38:48Z 2005-05-06T01:38:48Z WADDDUPP?!<br /><br />today i didnt go to school cuz i was reall sick therefor i called into work as well its like twenty minutes of ten and i am just starting to feel better so im going to school tomorow for sure.<br /><br />THANKS RYAN for doing my journal it rawkksss lol<br /><br />k the end i think cuz i didnt do anything today <br />&lt;3 peace noogies goodnight. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:rawkinforsure:37430 2005-05-03T01:38:30Z 2005-05-03T01:38:30Z wadup.<br /><br />I find myself becoming less and less intelligent everyday. I find i depend on others to answer questions or do things that i am copletly capable of. o welll.<br />o another thing im unreasonably happy haha like i find stupid things make me smile and laugh like a small child im a dweeeeb:-)<br /><br />so anyyywayyyys today was fun i guess we went to saint camillus and i hate it there if it wasnt for niki sam and the exception of a few others i would pull my ahir out litterally.<br /><br />&lt;3 peace noogies :-) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:rawkinforsure:37347 2005-05-02T02:02:04Z 2005-05-02T02:02:04Z HAVE YOU EVER JUST WANTED no wait NEEDED A CHANGE something totally out of the ordinary like oging to the beach in the snow. but its not snowing so maybe tanning in the rain or something i dunno i just am in the mood to do something unpredictable and random and special like right now:-) like i just want to up and leave get out of here for a while take a trip or something im excited cuz my mom is giong to buy a pool tomorrow so ill have that this summer while my family goes to the campground and i stay home and work but whatever:-) the end for now <br /><br />leave some loveee&lt;333 urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:rawkinforsure:36861 2005-05-01T15:13:38Z 2005-05-01T15:13:38Z i just had a massive coffee MASSIVE actually it was a latte and it was damn goooood:-) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:rawkinforsure:36393 2005-04-30T20:39:43Z 2005-04-30T20:39:43Z Oh-Ciara WADUP!?<br /><br />yaa im tired and think im feeling better finally :-) i sleptt till like nooon time today and i am thinking im gonna take a nap again cuz im still not 100% haha. <br /><br />ya so my mom paid for me to filll my gas tank cuz im poor and have no money till wed. and even then ill have nothing cuzz my insurance is due the 11th and i have no money saved to pay it cuz of the cruise so yes i suck at life. i made someone buy me scratch tickets today to and i LOST cuz just ya i did haha i was excited thinking maybe ill win a little bit of money for the weeeek but not a fucken dime and now im down 10 bucks not thats a ton of money either but im poor lol<br /><br />SHIT ya so anyways when people smoke in my car i make them throw the buttss in water bottles cuz i dont wanna get pulled over for people throwing shit out my windows cuz im not legal to drive with peopole yet. so anyways i picked up my brother today and a water bottle fulll of ciggarette butts comes rolling out from under the seat hes liek umm kara whats this "O SHIT" haha im like my friends smoke in my caar all the time ethan and i dont let them throw them out the windows blah blah blah hopefuly he wont tell my dad:-/<br /><br />i want a new cell phone damnnn bad i dont know why i dont get one o wait yes i do I HAVE NO MMONEY MY B.<br /><br />k the end.<br />&lt;33 peace noogies urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:rawkinforsure:36233 2005-04-29T19:54:45Z 2005-04-29T19:54:45Z PHAHAHAHAHAHA my example of....you decide:-) compliments of me and samantha.<br /><br /><center><a name="cutid1"></a><br /><br /><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v738/mhmyummy/030522.jpg" alt="Image hosted by Photobucket.com"><br /><br /></center> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:rawkinforsure:35955 2005-04-29T02:27:22Z 2005-04-29T02:29:13Z This is the second time im writing about it<br /><br />Today i woke feeling horrrible so bad that i cant even comprehend how bad i felt. Then i managed to drag my dead ass to school only to realize i would have been much healthier/HAPPIER staying home<br /><br />i got home and proceeded to leave for work only to realize I SHOULD HAVE CALLED IN SICK TO WORK again i felt shitty i shook all night like shookkk haha then i gagged a couple times when i tried to eat my yogurt so i decided i wasnt hungry anymore.<br />IM FUCKING UP MY BODY CUZ I DONT EAT PROPERLY EVER i dont evne have one meal a day i two small meals one consists of what we have at school at which i only pick at and the other is either a muffin or a yogurt from work thats it my diet :-( im unhealthy and dont really care.<br /><br />My cat that ive had since i was one was put to sleep today :-( RIP muffin:-(<br /><br />ya so the end my shitty day but i have ALLL WEEKEND OFFFF:-) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:rawkinforsure:35596 2005-04-28T01:54:10Z 2005-04-28T01:54:10Z Ok most people get pissed when theres rumors being spread about them. I dont i laugh. Supposedly cuz i hung out with someone one time... "him and i are going to get our downstairs peirced this weekend". ugh haha its funny im laughing.<br /><br /> the end urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:rawkinforsure:35561 2005-04-27T02:51:27Z 2005-04-27T02:51:27Z whatevaaa lol. today suckeeddd lol im just tired i want summer to be like tomorrow:-) and i want a boyfriend and i want to never have to work again lol.<br /> <br />Im sick of like everything i need a change i dont even like hanging out at the same places anymore. Im glad summer is coming because im wanting to go to the drive in and the beach and up to my trailor and down the cape and fun places im sick of the MALLL haha and BOWLING and whatever else you can think of that i do haha.<br /><br />o yes and i ahve this english paper due iT BLOWS like massivley i hate it :-) i just thought i needed to tell you all haha<br /><br />and i decided to paste my code in my info so everyone can ready my livejournal lol<br /><br />k im giong to bed i need my beauty sleeeep:-) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:rawkinforsure:35089 2005-04-24T11:35:40Z 2005-04-24T18:07:21Z Subject: Hellishly Fuckin Gay<br />Wow glad your gonna be darker then MJ you stupid fuck. Go on right ahead and please go out with one of your mall rats that ARE NOT staring at youuuu they are staring at the pretty girl with you. I hope i never get the chance to see the hottest ass in town guh. Hope you had a hellishly good time reading this. Luvvv yazzz Nooooogie mwwwah BFFFLS :)<br /><br />when i write a livejournal entry im most likely kidding or writing about an inside joke or something stupid. why people have to leave comments like that is so beyond me i dont understand but whatever if my entries offend you or piss you off or something im sorrry im done with livejournal as of today officially cuz people are to touchy and worse than i am. and i know who left the comment im not dumb so whatever youve written way more stupid <br /> things than i ever have EVER. :-) that comment made me sick to my stomach i dont even know why it made me feel like a terrible person like i dont even belong breathing the same air as some people and if you feel like i dont fine i think it just bothered me most cuz i know who wrote it. im really not as retarted as my livejournal may make me sound and the darker than mj thing is a total joke the hottest ass in town again another joke this kid at work says it sometimes to me and another girl so we laugh about it the mall rat thing wahtever im not caring about that one and maybe they were thank you for clearing that up you make it sound like i think im the most awesomest thing to walk the planet and im sorry i dont i have more self doubt than i dont even know what i dont think im hot by any means of the word i think im fat and i think im ugly on a scale of one to ten my self esteem is maybe a 2 on a good day. if ive managed to offend you fine im sorry. But this was not about offensive comments ive made in my journal i know that they were you just looking for ways to lash out at me or soemthing why?! am i really even worth the effort cuz by the way your comment sounded i wouldnt think so. <br /><br /><br />K i went to work and am home now and had time to think about this IM NOT SORRY IF IVE OFFENDED YOU i hope you DIE. The end people like you are always praying off people like me in some way because im younger, not as intelligent, and not as gorgeouse and outgoing as most WHATEVER if this is your way of feeling better about yourself keep going i hope you have a field day with it obviously ive never met you soooo WTF EVER i dont need people like you in my life FUCK YOU AND GAYNESS. i dont care that gayness isnt a word either i wrote it so go ahead and say shit to me for it cuz lord knows thats the kind of shit youd pick apart about this entry.